My friend once asked: “How did you know, that she was the right one. I mean you made up your mind so fast, how so?”
“How did I know?” I replied. My thoughts at first were vague, “How did I know?” I ummed, I wondered, curiosity ran in my head to and fro. But like a ponder soon to end or a field soon to sow, the arduous journey in my mind brought fruit and the questioned came to know.
“Well..” I stalled with. “I knew nothing else and saw no light. Life felt redundant, it was like a day without night”. The questioner didn’t understand. But it was ok that he not known, it wasn’t a question to be answered, but a feeling only to be shown.
Now sat there with a breeze and a sigh, on a beach with water like hand blown glass and with endorphins running high. I felt and said “Wow, I know at last!”. I had never known that answer or been asked the question. I mean I hadn’t had to and I didn’t know my loves inception. Now with a mind full of obsession I thought “how could I have not seen, or known, or even realised my own hearts discretion?”
I had felt emotion with another. But like a maternally loving Mother, in my heart, there could have been no other. Once when plight was thick I thought she was lost. I couldn’t have known any different, and like my teardrops thoughtless journey, I almost paid the ultimate cost. Now with a light heart I breathed, I sought, I sheathed my hearts beat and thought for a minute without a care if my pulse shall repeat.
I have walked and walked far. Crossed rivers of shame, but found my way home all the same. With hope as my map and her memory as my shrine I am now complete. Now she is mine. Like the fresh smell of the summer rain, my love is reinvigorated with each kiss again and again and again. Like a flicker of light on the darkest night, or when earths windows are undrawn and a new day is born. I was put in this world for this, for only this fight. To make this beautiful woman, my best friend, my wife.